Start living yourdreams. 

Enclosed is my memory of an experience I had at about the age of 4. It was before I started primary school at age 5 yrs. where I often had moments where I would just sit surrounded by nature. I would spend many hours just wandering the vacant fields opposite my house on the outskirts of town. It was at the foothills of a mountain and gave me great pleasure to seek further the wonderment of nature. I would look at flowers so closely as if viewing them under a microscope, and I learned the strength of one blade of grass and the displayed unity of an ant colony. I learned much more from my experiences with nature than any book. However, it ignited a curiosity within me – a huge desire to learn more and so at the age of 9 I was saving threepence from my lunch money to buy ‘how and why books”. The first was about science with a few experiments (which I practiced in mum’s kitchen to her disgust), then came the “solar system”, “the human body” and “reptiles”. I saw the world different to my peers and would rather go for a bike ride along country roads then sit and ponder the landscape, than to go to friends’ places. They were not interested in my preferred topics of discussion. I also later observed that I had intuition although there was not a name for it then. I could read between the lines and was quick to sum up the truth. I got scolded many times and was called stupid because my class grades weren’t as high as my sisters. I bought flower seeds and saved seeds from pumpkins to watch them grow. I was happiest outdoors, alone to allow my mind to meander at its will. I hid my books and opinions in fear of reprimand. We would attend Sunday school and church every Sunday. I was not impressed by the hypocrisy that was acted out by some people. They would be nice to you at church but gossip behind your back However I began to realise that my prayers were being answered and I wondered how this could be. It began a search of religion and the powers at large. Here is that memory of that experience as me becoming the leaf . A leaf flutters slowly to the ground. I am immediately mesmerized within its gentle beauty. My eyes follow it as it takes position upon the grass. It rests for a while, waiting patiently for a wisp of air to define its direction. I feel the air upon my face, as if answering to the call. The leaf shudders in preparation. It holds its ground as the wind increases in velocity. I too feel the wind as it pushes ever so gently against my body. Release, release and surrender, echoes within my mind. Force begins to operate. Surrender will hold the key. Then as if by either demand or desire, the wind increases in velocity. The battle has begun. I can see the veins in the leaf as determination assists desire. I feel the rigidity flowing through the veins of my body. The will to surrender is strong, but fear holds its ground. We have a choice to continue the battle with equal force and will, or surrender the force, and continue the battle with the presence of now, where knowledge can define each moment as it arrives. One more movement could mean fly or die. It is scary, like stepping out on a limb, and I feel the wind push at the side of my body once more. To take flight with surrender of will is gaining ground. My will is relinquished. Thy will operates. The leaf takes flight and so do I. Fear turns to pleasure as I relax the fight and go with the flow of the wind. I feel its strength beneath my wings, as it gently carries me in its safe arms, to and fro, higher and higher. This is freedom. This is the experience of going with the flow. This is allowance. This is thy will, not my will. All we must do is have faith and trust that all will be for the betterment of all things. Surrendering my will holds the key.